aLwaYs Be TheRE foR YoU

i will always be there for u...
but now im tired......
it hurts me a lot....

in the past...
whenever wherever u have probs, i' comfort u wif all my hearts....
i share the pain wif u...
i cry wif u....
i even lend my shoulders, my ears and my eyes for u....
n i'll always promise 2 be there for u......
even it hurts me....
even it cause pain to me....
but u never ever see my heart....
my sorrow...my pain...my love....my pride....

once....
i seek for u....
i look for a friend to comfort me....
to gave me some hands....
to game me some words...
to gave me some tears....
but how should i forget...???
u walk away from me....
u leave me behind...
nothing is said....
only my tears come apart....

now...
i dont even know u...
i dont even recognize u....
u call me... honey..darling....
different for some other times...
are u crazy???
why?????
but still nothing is said...
and i dont know u anymore....
and at last...
u revealed everything.....
ur love...ur heart.....
hm.....
im tired now.....
no more hope....
its just the end of us...
for being friends.....
im sorry...
cause it hurts me a lot..

Hepi CHinEsE New YeaR

buhsan......
















hepi chinese new year!!!!













motif???

AdeKaH aJaL aku dah SamPaI

mati itu pasti...
cume persoalannye kite bersedia atau tidak...
bagi aku..aku xbersedia lagik...
begitulah juge untuk aku menerima berita kematian...
tp aku xberdaye..sume tuh kuasa ALLAH..kalo DIA nak tarik nyawa sape2..itu kekuasaan DIA..permintaan DIA..hak DIA
but now aku sgt depressed.
..dgn performances aku dlm exam kali nih..
aku careless..
aku lalai...
aku blank...
aku langsung xingt input2 aku..
adekah ALLAH nak uji aku?? sampai aku xmampu nak wat pape2..
sejak OSCE kelmarin...
aku rase otak aku kosong sgt....
17 jam diprektikan bace nota 4 blok untuk nak jwb MCQ esknye setelah abes sume terbengkalai dierasekan dr otak aku nih......
xtermasuk berape helaian..
berape page...
maybe nak same tggi ngan aku dah kot if disusun...
ah!!
aku still xberjaye...
maybe input yg masuk just iconic n echoic bukan semantic..
. so just short term yg ade dlm my brain!!!
argh!!!!
n now i feel very terrified...
panic...
like aku nak mati...
ALLAH nak amik nyawe aku...
xpnh aku sakit kepale....
n now i having it...
sgt sakit...dr smlm..smpai skang...
n i have some ms weakness...numbnes...
adekah sebab aku jatuh tangge smlm????
is it bring probs???
but skang aku xrisau sakit aku 2...
aku risau my exam!!!!
my performances...
i dont wall to fail!!!!
i want 2 make everyone happy..
my late father...
n now aku rindu kat abah esp...rindu nak dgr sore die... smlm tetibe mimpi arwah...
tp aku nak cter kat sape???
nobody understand me...
its just me...
loneranger in diz world...
aku xnak susahkan mama....
susahkan sume...
but im really depress!!!..
patut ke aku jumpe psychiatrist....?????
patut ke aku jumpe aku luah kat orang yg aku xknai....
but aku xtahu nak luah ape!!!..
maybe just feeling aku...
maybe just aku yg rase sndiri..........................................................
or maybe aku just homesick..
nak berade dkt umah....
rumah yg bwak kenangan aku kat abah....
or maybe its just the feeling of a lonely person...
without love and without anyone care???
i need 2 find myself back



ya ALLAH, janganlah kau tarik nyawa aku sekarang...masih banyak lagik bende aku belum buat..untuk arwah abah..n paling penting untuk mama... n aku kan dah berjanji dengan Kau aku akan berubah jadik yg lebih baik...kasihanilah aku ya ALLAH

Im BLaNk In ExAm

pernah jdik kat korang x???
pernah mengalaminya x??
stress sgt2 bile tetibe ngah jwb exam kite blank...
maybe ade xkene dgn otak kite..or maybe its just 2 tell u dat u r superbly damnly under stress!!!
yes i am....!!!
and i really xsuke keadaan i2....
smpai bergenang air mate sambil jwb exam...how come diz happen 2 me?????
argh.....im so tensen!!!..now my harapan pada OSCE kecundang sudah!!!...
mungkinkah ade sinar baru MCQ esok..
chaiyok ema!!!!!!